In chapter 2


I WILL CALL YOU

- Amon
- Colin
- Dumuzi ya min
- Prince
- not Roderigo
- You prick
(only sometimes)
- fckboypandemic

You prick,

Do you really believe that I am here waiting for you
That I have been here standing waiting for you
For the last 2 months?

Yes please do come back
But just so I can fck you
Because I need to
Maybe for the last time
Yes
Maybe for the last time
I will make my decision
When you are here

You prick.

Dear Prince,

I have been travelling East
Travelling East
Moving around towards the East

I first arrived in Syria
Where there was too much destruction
For me to handle

Then I stayed in Egypt
for some time
Maybe for too long

Then I arrived in Turkey
Kurdistan more precisely
Where I hope to stay
for some time

Some incursions in Egypt that continue from time to time
But I have good hope
I will spend a bit of time
There in Kurdistan
Where I can maybe
Find some rest for some time
And quit Egypt forever.

Dear Colin,

I enjoy it so much
When you
Lick my clit

This is new

Dear all,

Z
showed me his performance.

E
showed me his poems.

B
showed me his films.

You prick,

Do you really believe
I will allow you to continue
Treat me like this?

I am seriously starting
To hate you
Which in my view
is definitely good news.

Dear Dumuzi ya min,

Maybe this is also good news
Because now I can then
Really
Switch to you.

Dear all,

But now I should start writing about arts
As it was
Officially
The goal
Of this writing project

Although
I sometimes wonder
Whether
It's not just about
Fcking as writing
Or writing as fcking

Seems the two are the same,
Right?

Dear Amon,

You once were
My sun indeed.

Do you remember how many Hundreds of letters
Thousands of letters
We exchanged?

That was
Say
I'm 43
I was about 15
= 28 years
About 28 years ago.

Now I'm sending letters
Again
But no one replies.

No one ever replies.

Dear You prick,

In the end
It's not possible
You can't stay tomorrow
Because my ex-Prince
Is coming to pick his stuff.

Dear fckboypandemic,

I just read the following:

"Sometimes quitting is an option. We need to normalize the idea of stopping, letting go and moving on. Don't be a martyr to prove a point. Quit. Then rest."

Oh gosh I just hope to fck you tonight
And then I will through you away
Like the shitbag you are.
Forever!

Dear fckboypandemic,

Call when you are on the train
You piece of shit.

Dear all

I am going to archeologize
All this

Archeologize you
Archeologize me

Look at this!

BREAK 

PAUSE

HOLIDAY

NAP

Dear fckboypandemic,

I beg you please
Come to me
So we can fck.

I don't care about the rest.

The rest is already over.

Dear fckboy,

I am so much
Looking forward to
Tonight
So I know
It's over.

So I know
It's over.

EPILOGUE

PROLOGUE

LOGLOGUE

PAGE DE PUB

RECLAME

WHAT HAPPENED?

Ladies and gentlemen,

It is my pleasure

To inform you

That there's two of them

Now


For how long

I have no idea

What's next

I have no idea


What do I want?

That someone loves me

But obviously no one

Fits the job


So I will keep the two

Until

Someone loves me for real.

"A DELAY",

says she.

Dear brothers and sisters,

But for now

There is no other way

Than to continue.