Anne Carson, The Beautiful Husband.
2020 02 11
I will never be able to find the same blue in the end.
You said you were thinking about time my dear
so here I am sending this to you.

The Perfect Lovers are in sync at the beginning but sometimes there's a...

a delay.
2020 05 20
2019 08 26 

This used to be my workplace but I was actually
sweeping
tindering
when I took that photo

Don't worry my dear that was ages ago
"2019 08 28-WA0004 self portrait for tinder when they ask for"
is the name of the photo
"2019 08 30 12.06.59 they like this jumpsuit when I wear it.jpg"


Let's not put a date here.

Maybe I should just continue like this. As long as you make me write.

As long as it's inspiring.

And then maybe throw you away when I'm done.





I have my dildo
I SENT THIS TO HIM.

HE NEVER REPLIED.

Was this 2019 09 05?
Anne Carson, The Beauty of the Husband
...
...
"YOUR POETRY'S BAD AND YOU BLAME THE NEWS"

Lana Del Rey, Norman fucking Rockwell

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"Why wait for the best when I could have you?"
Sometimes they also expect this










You are so egocentric my dear.
How can you put so many images of yourself online?
DON'T HURT HIM HE'S SO SENSITIVE!!!

EXERCISE
EMPATHY +++++++
How do the clocks of decolonial love look like?

Seems I am starting to know how the clocks of toxic love look like
Things I Don't Want to Know
(Deborah Levy)
Look how the word shines my dear
Anne Boyer Garments
Seems you're trying to perform that quote my dear

But I won't

--------------------------------------------Deborah Levy
WHEN YOU USE THESE ONES I AM OK

😍 😘 💖 🔥

WHEN YOU USE THESE ONES I START TO DOUBT

🌹
or the butterfly I can't find the butterfly

WHEN THERE'S NONE I THINK YOU DON'T LOVE ME ANYMORE
I PANIC
Anna Tsing. 
The Mushroom at the End of the World.
On the Possibility of Life in Capitalist Ruins.
FIRST TIME I FREAKED OUT
on Dec 16

YOUR REACTION WAS GREAT

Last times I freaked out

you treated me like a child
or a piece of shit
, says he
, says he.
, says he.
2019 12 16_214324 deborah levy tempest see ciara
2019 09 30

The film starts with Ursula k Le Guin talking about RULES

"(...) books about writing tend to be full of rules. "Do this, don't do that".
I don't talk about rules, because I have come to believe that every story must make its own rules. And obey them."
CAN I ERASE SOMETHING FOR YOU?
CAN I HAVE A BRAINS RESET?
HE NEVER WANTED TO GO WITH ME

CURTAINS
----CURTAINS
---------CURTAINS
----------------------------CURTAINS
____________________________________________________________________________________CURTAINS
Greed's all gone now, there's no question
And I can see you push your hair behind your ears
Regain your balance
Doesn't matter where she is tonight
Or with whoever she spends her time
If these arms were meant to hold her
They were never meant to hold her so tight
For the love of that girl
Greed's all gone now, the panic subsides
When I could run, pulling arms to love her
Try to put myself on on the inside

For the love of that girl
Tears swell, you don't know why
For the love of that girl
They never fall, they can never run dry
For the love of that girl

Promise is never over, never questioned it needed reply
But she could breathe deep into my neck
Let me know I'm just on the outside

(chorus)
Greed's all gone now, there's no question
And I can see you push your hair behind your ears
Regain your balance
Doesn't matter where she is tonight
Or with whoever she spends her time
If these arms were meant to hold her
They were never meant to hold her so tight
(consent not to be a single being)
Fred Moten
Junot Diaz
Still from a film by Amelie Bouvier
Preciado
Deborah Levy
Preciado
Anne Carson
Sara Ahmed
Living a feminist life